Gambling Addict?

Sugarbaby125 By Sugarbaby125, 8th May 2015 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/4pdd044-/
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I am a gambling addict, have been for many years. I started aged 18 by walking in a local gambling arcade and putting that 1st coin in the slot. If I had known where that would lead me, I would never have stepped foot into that arcade. I am now 53 years old and do not know when I will ever truly beat this gambling addiction.

Why Do I Gamble?

I gamble because I am addicted to gambling. I am now able to say that without any remaining guilt. There has been so much guilt in my life because of my gambling addiction, but now I try to control my gambling, rather than allowing the gambling to control me.

In my thirties, I had my biggest ever loss on slot machines in one day. I lost £300, that I definitely could not afford to lose, but at that time in my life I was deeply lost in my gambling addiction. In fact, in reality, I lost more than £300, because I borrowed the cash from my Credit Card, so the resulting interest meant that I had to repay a lot more than £300, with nothing to show for the money, except deep regret. That was not my light bulb moment about how financially destructive my gambling addiction could be, it was a much slower process.

No, I am not fooling myself about my gambling addiction. Since the advent of online gambling, I have been able to set daily or weekly gambling limits which I am then unable to exceed. This has helped me in so many ways to keep within my own spending boundaries. I have 3 online gaming accounts. on 2 of them my daily limit is £10 and on the 3rd Site my limit is £5.

Having the spending limits gives me time to pause, think and consider, whether I even want to take to risk of losing £5 or £10 of my hard earned money. Most of the time, thinking it over, I will usually decide that it is a resounding No!!!! So even though at the moment I still have to have the spending limits as a crutch to prevent me from spending too much time and money on gambling, It is still a lifeline.

I am taking one day at a time, which then becomes a week, then the weeks turn into months. I can go cold turkey and not gamble again, but in times of high stress, I tend to find myself returning to my online gambling. But like any addict, I live in hope that one day I will find that gambling no longer holds any fascination or any attraction for me.

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Bingo, Debt, Family, Gambling, Gambling Addiction, Gambling Debt, Slots

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I have always liked to write. I write poetry and short stories, but I have never had the confidence in my writing to try to see it published before, so I am going to give it a try, at last!

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author avatar GV Rama Rao
28th Jun 2015 (#)

I wish you good luck in getting deaddicted.

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author avatar SaigonDeManila
31st May 2016 (#)

😇👍✍

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